from her. with love.

i miss my little space

Am sittin' around here, eyes wanderin' at lots of interesting people, overheard interesting conversations. It's such a busy small space and a quiet me, filled with thoughts. But everything else seems less important now, when I can just sit around, eyes wanderin' about, like that's all I'll do for the rest of the day. Am missin' randomness.

To: The Superman in my life ♥

Owl ♥

here's my favourite owl jacket 。。。

which hubby had never really fond of, not sure why :)

imma lil' hungry right now :`(

nothing's gonna take me down.

okay. enough about the complaints. am gonna make this A GOOD LIFE.

Like Jenny said:
"I will be fine, I am hardcore."

somebody's just not me

i figured it's not easy, life down the path. i've seen 'em, been with 'em, those before me.
it's hard to make priority now, cuz i would give up anything just to let myself loose.
tell me, if you'd know the future

Needs A Charm ♥

Gonna sit for my very 1st professional paper soon !!!

Currently, still procrastinating & thinking of what to wear to Cuzzie's big day 2ml !!!
A lil' over-excited & enjoying the blessings & loves when all the family members
gather altogether & get prepared for her !!! Am seeing REDS everywhere !!!
♥ Wish Me Luck ♥

she's in her holiday mood ♥

One more week and the fish's heading to Perth, yeahuuu ^^
I can't wait to take this break, I miss all of you in Perth !!!

Hope everything goes smoothly these few days &
I'll be able to travel worries-free !!!

Meantime, Company's having this Moon Cake festival get-together
steamboat + BBQ party on the 19th, though planning stuffs have & always
been my unfavourite part of the job, am still very much looking forward to the night !!!
Haven't really talk about my colleagues before, here's some recent photos of us in karaoke ~
It was a great night !!! I would really love another karaoke night again !!!
There's really no better colleagues in this whole wide world than these whom I have now,
they make gloomy audit days brighter, and quiet office much merrier =)
Here's Siaw Hui (who is leaving soon, but we'll definitely be missing your crazy moments =)),
and Tiong Yi ~ my neighbour + bestie in the office !!! She's a super nice fren &
will never fail to lend you that much needed helping hands whenever you
call out to her !!! Girl, you wouldn't know how grateful I am
to know you !!! She's like a snow white, isn't she =)

breathe, all over again

Felt a lil' blue today 。。。

Never really thought that I would stick to a routine like this every day - waking up in the morning, going to the office, trying to keep myself busy, and get off work early. I thought I was more capable of making myself useful at work but the truth is, I've grown tired of this lifestyle. And am quite disappointed of myself 'cuz I thought am better than this. No one was hard on me, work was never really eating me alive, I've seen peers who were worse off. But, I just couldn't project myself here, in the same spot, even just half a year from now. I remembered a close lecturer of mine told me that, "this pond is too small for a big fish like you" - I was honestly flattered, but I really couldn't see myself fitting anywhere better. Hubby told me that I was prolly too hard on myself, and this work has been pushing my esteem lower, instead of boosting 'em. Am not quite sure of the future, but I don't think I've learnt enough to call it an end just yet. Am always tempted by chances around, but too afraid to make a change, if only I can see through the choices I have, maybe things weren't so complicated itself.

But if only I can do so much

it's a cheerful monday

it would be nice, if everyday is today

♥

i have a million things to say

i felt a lil' over talkative tonight,
i think i have so much to say, so much in mind,
i couldn't lay them out bits by bits,
i wanna say it all out t.o.g.e.t.h.e.r. ....

came back home today, feeling a lil' more light-hearted than those of the other days at work,
i think am starting to get rid of the piles of unfinished works, but i couldn't think straight now and i hope that isn't an illusion. or it could be the boss on the travel? maybe...

facebook. checked.
LeLove. checked.
gmail. checked.
Jnb's Parloir. checked & now am stuck with his lomo photos and his playlist. i have a sudden urge to travel, without plans, without companions, just me, and my blank mind. and still, Boston is the place i wanna be.

right now. at this moment. i frankly hate looking at the updates on my facebook.
i randomly feel like hating someone. don't worry. this isn't going to last longer than a few minutes. i miss road trips. i miss being the only girl on the trip, i miss lady-first hahaha...

i miss being surrounded by darkness and a whole piece of sky with glittering stars, i feel the earth is round and i laid beside the stars...

i miss saying hi to strangers, i miss chasing trains, not the part that i got myself a 100 bucks fine.

am taking a break. and no one is supposed to stop me from doing that =)

BAH !!!

right now.

There's this place I really wanted to be right now.

Could I stay awake and dream?

Rambles

it's just so much going on in her mind now 。。。
too much thoughts in this little little brain of hers ♥

The Fish's Notes

。。。

1. Missing having the whole room to myself. Missing 1 whole year in Perth.
2. Random thoughts of writing my little Aussie tale. Too bad, am short of words.
3. Pictures left a lot of unsaid stories. Luggages weren't overweight, memories were.
4. 5 hours flight home seemed lonelier than alone. But still, it's homey once again.
5. Trying to steal some rest while workloads keep piling up. Heading off to KL in 3 days.
6. Learning to grow sunflower in-house. Never kept one perfect outdoor.
7. And then I realised, life's far too brief than just a few lines of short notes ...

The Love Things

If I could put my life aside now,
these are the little things I love to do with you.

The Other End of The Line

I always believe that good things come when you least expect it.

Things like waking up to a really nice weather, bumping into a long-lost
friend, caught with a smile by a lovely stranger, or simply seeing sunflowers !!!
I've been back in my hometown for 3 weeks now & still finding every parts of
it lovely as it used to be. The ocean might not be as clear as Perth but it
still tastes home & I love the clouds & the breeze of hometown wind !!!
I love waking up on my 22 years old bed, I miss it so much ♥

Randomly watched "The Other End of The Line",
and had this instant connection to the love story.



I love the tagline, it says:
"Two Countries, Two Cultures, One Chance at Love"
I love how Bollywood meets Hollywood in such a lovely encounter.
It makes me wonder, if that ever happens in real life.

♥ LeLove

A writer on LeLove said:

。。。So here’s what I want. I want you. I want you to want me. I want you to want me first. I want there to be no one else. I want it to be me. So here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to stop dwelling. I’m going to stop watching the phone. I’m going to stop looking for you. I’m going to move on. I’m going to meet people. I’m going to live.

I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. I’m going to forget the times that it was just us. I’m going to forget the things that shouldn’t have happened. I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return. I’m going to forget how I felt about you.

Instead, I’m going to subconsciously wait. If you really want me, if you miss me, if you can’t breathe without me, you’ll know. You’ll ring. You’ll text. You’ll visit. And if you drift, if you don’t call, if there’s no texts, if there’s no visits. I’ll know. I’ll know it was never meant to be. And I'll continue moving on & I’m going to walk tall.

But in between everything I will forget, I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learnt. I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. And I will certainly not forget the hell I was put through to learn all this, to become a better person.

I remember you telling me that ‘you’re never the same person twice’. Good. I never want to be this person again. And I am going to do whatever I can to make sure I am the best me I can be. I don’t want to be your best version. This time, it’s for me.

。。。when writings touched.

Fishy's Summer

Finally, Perth's back to Summer, exactly that

very season when I first arrived here in this totally
new city to me. And a whole year will soon come to an end,
im'ma experiencing Summer in a totally different mood now.
Perth is no longer a stranger, and am starting to realize that
I like winter more hahaha 。。。am literally a walking
steamed fish now, Perth is HOT HOT HOT !!! But
still, I can't wait to shop during BOXING DAY !!!

p/s: Happy 54th Monthiversary, my dearest hubby ♥

Pondering Thoughts of Future

I asked myself：“ Where will I stand 5 years from now?”
“ Who will I be if I chose to walk down this path?”

and then I realized, am just too afraid to make a change.
Life is not about toasting a coin & a set of multiple choice,
life itself is a change. I have to live a life ♥

Keep Me In Your Prayer Tonight ♥

She's excited about her new job tomorrow ♥
Hope everything goes well =)